Well, i felt that i should write a blog as it's been a little while but i didn't really have anything of interest, i still don't now to be honest....
I have been concerned lately that maybe my once sincere promises have now fallen into false ones, i initially intend to keep them but i suppose lack of time and effort aren't good traits and people just generally move on, you start to realise how some of these things become an inconvienience to your schedule as well as your interests and that in fact some of your most favourite things to do isn't something you can share with these people, thus raising the issue of these false promises, i fully intend to do as i promise to keep these people satisfied but as time progresses you become less committed to the promise and realise that maybe you shouldn't have agreed to anything at all. This is a problem i am finding hard to deal with at the moment, and i know that people change and move on to new things when theres a new stage in their life thats about to start but i was hoping these changes would be of a more positive nature rather than the evident.
I am also concerned about this new stage thats about to start, is this going to make me more independant? or only prove my parents right that i am not ready to take care of my self financially as well as mentally. I want to break free of the control and limits that have been created for me, however, when i am on my own, free to make my own decisions and have my own responsibilities will i remain motivated? will i make the most of my opportunities and use them to my full advantage? or will i just fail all together!
ahhh, a lot for me to think about i see...
