The cutter of cost

I took a trip to Costcutter's perviously this week only to be left dissapointed! A Bueno chocolate bar which is usually 55p in the Mars, here it was 65p!! Now i am one to complain of such inconvenience as not only did i only have 58p, but i was faced with the embarrasment of taking it to the counter and discovering it was too expensive for my liking and had to retreat back to the decision stage.  What ever happened to PRICE TAGS?? because in Costcutter they are non existant! Why would they deliberately inflict that irritating situation on you!!

Does this look like a happy place to you? Yes? Well, WHY MISLEAD YOUR CUSTOMERS? because I was not a happy customer!

So Costcutter (Who claim to be the cutter of cost) you in fact do NOT cut the cost! if anything you are too expensive for us casual folk!

SO FUCK YOU!

The position of the Welsh Language in contempory Wales

The postition of the Welsh language is here >
Although it is on more of a slant..
You may want to go and visit this, but be aware to do this soon as it is at risk of becoming extinct!
It's favourite snacks are Oreo's, there is free entry into it's cage but ONLY if you are waering Levi's, otherwise you have to pay £524 in order to see the indangered Welsh Language otherwise you go to hell from seeing 'THE GAME' written on a trapped door beneath your feet at the pearly gates!

Catch up blog

Ok, so here goes..

Friday 12th: Mair's party..Everythings hazy and i'm trying to piece together my drunken night, which is not easy when people have so many stories about you... like sitting in a plant and not realising for e.g. haha so drinking should be taking to a minimum i think! haha

Saturday 13th: I didn't get in from Mair's party until gone two, and fell asleep around three, i was up several times to have a glass of water to try and sober up, when i finally got up for work i was convinced i was still drunk at half eight. but luckily it wore off not long after starting my shift. Luckily i was finished my twelve thrity and went to cardiff with Lloyd-Rhys SHOPPING! it was for mothers day and i spent money i didn't have lol money i was meant to save for my Tattoo in two weeks time! we then went to watch The Rocky Horror Picture show in theatre which is not advised when you have a HUGE hangover but the show....AMAZING!! i loved it! and surprisingly so did Lloyd-Rhys!

Sunday 14th: Mothersday, bought my mom some dress she liked in H&M and some Thorntons chocolates, luckily she was pleased, we went shopping had a mcdonalds, i got some Photo shop work done and ate loads of junk food....it was a good day :D

Monday 15th : Sarah seemed to be a little weird with me, which i understand but am still upset about...Sarah, i think your a good friend and i hope we can put it behind us and get on with things...
I also discovered my tears.. i now realise how iv'e been testing the ropes and that i am lucky to have what i have and i need to make decisions in order to keep those things. So maybe a life change is in order here!

Tuesday 16th: Lloyd-Rhys...we had a long talk about how he doesn't listen to me and he doesn't understand me, also how he doesn't support me when i need him...we spoke about our worries, as i didn't know what to do with my life, was i rejecting universtity for our relationship? is it umiversity that i want to do? i didn't know! i was afraid that i would lose Lloyd-Rhys and he was worried he was going to lose me...he said hes afraid that he isn't good enough for me and that i will leave him for another woman, even though he knows that i am in love with him, why doesn't he get that he's my exception? and that he's special to me? There was alot of shouting and insults and at one point i thought that was it...untill he made me a promise...that if i go to universtity he will support me, and he will get a job that pays more to support of finances if we move in together...so for now things were solved..

Wednesday 17th: The Newport interview for Fashion and advertising photography, after having all of the talks and tours a quickly fell in love with place, the course sounds amazing and the facilities were to a high standard, i even looked at the accomidation and although it wasn't very good it made me excited! In the actual interview, i think it went well, it lasted about 25 minutes and i spoke for most of it, i was prepared with questions and explained my work as much as i could, he mentioned a foundation year, i replied that i would do it if it was advised and if they don't think i could cope but he said he thinks i would be able to cope as my Portfolio is methodical and my B&W prints were to a high standard, so lets hope im in luck!
When i got home i told Lloyd-Rhys and said that i was also considereing staying in thier accomidation for the first year and then moving in with him, which at first he didn't like the sound of as today while i was in the interview he had applied for a higher paid job so that even if i didnt have money we could still afford to live comfortably. i explained to him that i want to experience the whole thing of university and then after the first year i will be ready to move in with him, and after i told him the pro's and cons and how he can stay over quite often and its actually closer to his work place, he liked the idea and has agreed to help me, he said he is also going to help me set up meetings in my gap year to get my photo's and name out there! so i just hope he sticks to his word! because now i am VERY excited that i have actually decided what to do!!

Today: After yesturday i am shattered!! But Sarah seems good with me again YEY!! Carrie or Xanthe aren't in!! and If Kim finds out that Carrie was in school and havn't been turning up to her lessons she is FUCKED... they are freaking out and are so pissed at her down the art room, i'm afraid she is fucking this up and she needs it for University! I know it's horrible to say but i think Carrie needs to actually get in trouble in order to realise...and im getting pissed off because whenever shes late or don't turn up its me that they are complaining and shouting to!! it's not fair on me when it's Carrie's doing!! as much as i love her she needs to sort herself out! this is getting ridiculous now!

Welll there you go...My week so far...

Xanthe kicked my arse!

All i wanted was some Green tea, and Xanthe goes on to abuse me with her raised voice and a rather forceful kick up the urr 'bottom'...so for that Xanthe i shall say this...



















































































































































































































The game! :)

Insecurity

Ok, so before me and Lloyd-Rhys got together he told his sister he didn't plan on asking me out because i wasn't good enough and he could get better...Leah had to convince him to ask me out.. and even then he wasn't that interested at the beginning...i know it was a long time ago but i only found out yesturday and it's really got to me you know.. i know i should get over it and not obsess, but i can't help to think about the kind of girl he prefered, and when he tells me he thinks im beautiful i just think 'LIAR!!' my insecuity totally dominates my mind...and i wish i didn't mentally ruin these sweet moments, and that i didn't hang up on the past but i can't help it!! i know it wasn't going to be a fairytale...it's just stupid!

well ive had my moan...

Photoshoot

For Media Studies, I'm doing a Fable 2 slash Mulan style computer game design, Xanthe being the generous person she is, was lovely enough to be the model for my character! Whilst me, being the annoying perfectionist photographer definately created some difficulty for her! I dressed her up in some shorts and a vest (All Xanthe's) alongside a rather amuzing headband and Sword! haha

I attempted the whole green screen technique to make my photoshop work a little easier, hoping that it would save a little time! haha i also used a fan to blow her hair for a fantasy look! Now that was obviously funnier for me than anyone else, and made it rather irritating for Xanthe haha but i think the pictures came out great!

Heres one of the actual photo's i took:

And here it is after i photoshopped it!

im sure that once i have completed the whole game cover it will look alot better however.

So, Thankyou Xanthe for being my model! and thanks to Carrie and Trev for being my Fan Man and attempted fan Woman! haha

Besides the photoshoot i have found today rather dull, seeing Lloyd-Rhys is obviously a highlight! but all we ever do is sit around and watch T.V/ play on the Xbox 360 or go for rather routine walks to the castle or Tesco, I'm not saying i don't enjoy these things, i just don't feel that these are much to talk about. I mean don't get me wrong this isn't ALL we do, but i suppose me and Lloyd-Rhys have gotton to that stage in the relationship where we are comfortable with routine, and we don't NEED to do anything particularly interesting to enjoy eachothers company.

My favourite thing about any day really is that moment where your head just hits the pillow after a long day and you pull your quilt up to your neck and just relax, but then morning comes, and getting out of bed i find is quite unwanted! haha

I don't like Monday's

Well, it was obviously extremely mundane, i enjoyed the social aspects of it however, i must say guy's...(and you know who you all are!! as your the only ones that know about my blog) i must say that you are the only things making School bearable! lets face it! im not here for the work!! haha

My only down sider is the frowns! i know people can't help it if they aren't in a particualary in a good mood, but happy friends make a happy Chloe, and i hate the thought that i can't cheer them up! but i will not name anyone, as you will know who it is!

Ive spoken to the mother about University, and she just said she is glad that im keeping my options open by going to the interviews and if i don't change my mind within the year then obviously she can't stop me! so i can stop moaning about Uni as my mind is finally at ease!! and i have been working my BUTT off so i am also being aloud my life back!! WOO!

I guess the thing i'm looking forward to the most at the moment is getting my tattoo done, sure it will hurt! but it will all be worth it!! 20 something more days!

Anyways, thanks for being the reason i go to school dragonfaces!! :D

Still under..

Well, in all fairness i have been given some of my life back, like i was aloud to stay over Lloyd-Rhys's and was aloud to see him after School...but i have been working my but off for this!!

The issue of university still remains however. My mother has mentioned my portfolio to take to the interview and in order to prevent an argument i stood in silence hoping that she would realise she is making me miserable, but nothing!

Then me and Lloyd-Rhys was discussing it today and he said he thinks i should go... which i was surprised about. We had a long talk about it, and im considering going to the interviews and that if i get in then i shall see if i change my mind over the year (as i applied for a defered entry anyway) which i think is unlikely but then my mother will be happy for now and i have plan B... i don't know if there is point...but well see i guess...

ii just realised that i keep mentioning Lloyd-Rhys and yet has not introduced him, well we have been best friends/ partners for 1 Year, 3 months and 9 days to be exact. I met him in Graphics in year 12, it was the typical boy meets girl, becomes friends, girl likes boy, boy rejects girl, boy gets jealous and changes his mind, so girl goes running to him... so yer, we didn't start off great, but i would say things are just right to date =] which is more than i can say for any other relationship i have had haha, Lloyd-Rhys really is special. :)

Thought for the day: I want to start the whole get fit and Green tea diet, ive been on green tea everyday for a week, so that's not going too bad, and i tried on my gym kit which ive never worn and they still have the tags on them, and wonder even though i want to, will i? i don't have high hopes! lol so many times have i tried and was too impatient to do it long enough for any effect to occur, so either i try to become and excercise addict...or i give up!! haha

House Arrest

Day 3:

Well, seen as there was the Year 11 open evening i was in school from 8:30am until 8:00pm helping out. i didn't mind you know, it was a relaxed environment and my mother said that due to my hard work i was aloud to see Lloyd-Rhys for two hours!! :D yey!

My uncle and cousin (that i havnt seen in two years due to 'issues') turns up and attempts to make conversation as though nothing had happened, of course i replyed pleasantly but the whole time was wondering; why would you deliberately try and create this kind of awkwardness? and then as soon as i broke eye contact they dissappeared and didn't even say goodbye, so what i dont get, if your going to greet me and create conversation then why not follow through and make the effort?

Anyway, when i got home i had a letter from the third and final University i had applied to, all three has invited me to an interview. My mum obviously saw the letters and assumes that i will be attending even after i told her i didn't want to go to University.

My art teacher said that i should research the option i chose (to get a full time job/ aprentiship in the photography buisness) and to present her with the information so she is then aware that my decision isn't a bad one, if it will work, who knows? but im running out of options here, i mean talking and explaining to her just led to endless shouting so an alternative is in order here! haha

I was extatic that i got to see Lloyd-Rhys but because i was stupid enough to ask for permission she now thinks she has the power over me to decide if im aloud to see him again tomorrow depending on the amount of work i complete. she does realise im 18 now right?

but anyway, i had to have a bitch and a moan to get it out of my system haha

House Arrest

Day 2:

How rubbish is this? My mother finally found out that University isn't on my priority list, so has decided to act very irrationally by keeping me in the house all day everyday to do mindless work... seeing my friends outside of school is no longer an option! There is no more driving lessons / no more work on weekdays and most importantly no more Lloyd-Rhys!

I know she can't stand the whole 'Chloe making her own decisions' thing but surely this has gone a step far...its basically food then stuck in my room until the morning.
its not like I'm not being sensible, I'm aware that not a lot of Photography businesses even recognises a degree, and its more about experience and contacts, so why would i want all of that debt?

Do you know those spoilt little girls who has a hissy fit in the middle of the store because the Barbie doll she wanted was sold out...well that's my mother when she doesn't get her own way.

OK, i get that she is worried about my future, but since when does not wanting to go to University make me a waste of space and a brain?!

This is my second day now of putting up with the pointless punishment and frankly if i wasn't full up with a head cold i would be down stairs stamping my feet!! ha ha
Am i the only one with an over controlling mother? or am i the only unlucky one?
ha ha